Just a little late...

Sitting here, looking back at all of my entries and realizing how much nothing has changed. I still feel lost. I still feel insecure. A boy I like told me the other day that i'm less beautiful because of insecure. Crazy how right he really is.

I feel like though I've been through a lot, I can't step out of that place and save myself. Save myself from hurt, damage, and ultimately hate. In an instant I can hate myself and have a reason for it. because to me. im not worth a thing. where did i go wrong? where did i lose it all? wondering all these questions tonight really is draining. i wish someone cared enough to know what i feel. i wish someone really understood where i am & what i feel.

it's not easy.

bye.

Currently listening to: "When I Need You" by Celine Dion