I've been blind sighted for so long. What I thought was real was nothing but a facade. A good front that was put up and believed. One of my biggest fears is living a lie and I feel that that is exactly what has happened. I've been living in this lie believing something that wasn't really real. I can't say that I am completely shocked to figure this out, but I wish I would've been wrong. It would've been less hurtful and less humiliating. Cause all in all, that is what I feel, humiliated. I tried so hard to defend my feelings and to prove them to people. Now it turns out that those people were right all along. There's nothing else I can do but put my head down when I am told "I told you so."
Even though I learned so much from this experience, more than I thought I was going to, I wish it never would've happened cause now, I'm more lost than I ever was.
Salam.
Currently listening to: Where I Stood-Missy Higgins
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